What is Grief

I am standing on a beautiful beach, watching the ocean water creep up to my toes. I feel the warmth of the sun on my face.  I stand in silence and hear the music of the waves surround me, serenading me like an old friend.  I slowly close my eyes and take in the peace and calm I am finally feeling.  I start to open my eyes and out of no where,  I see it coming at me with full force!  The ocean water has turned black and the waves are starting to grow to full fury.  I try to run but I can’t. A wave catches me and takes me under.  I can’t see, I can’t scream, I can’t breath! I go deeper and deeper. I fight with all my might.  I kick, I scream, I cry out!   I grasp at anything I can to hold on to.  I think ‘Oh God, this is it.  This is the one that I will not come out of.”  Then, just as I think I can’t​ go on,  I see a glimmer of light… a beautiful and calming light.  The waves are getting calmer and smaller.  I can finally touch the bottom.  My heart is no longer racing.   I can feel the sun beaming on my face once again.  The noise has silenced.  I can breath again….for now…until the next wave